The shift from external to internal knowing

Moving from sensing on the outside to sensing on the inside has been one of the most healing and difficult things I learned to do on my journey to healing. I struggled with it for years because it wasn’t something I was taught. I often thought it might not be important or meaningful. I’ve eventually learned that approaching life from a place of internal knowing and guidance is one of the most important things I can do in my life.

Learning to approach life from your internal compass can be a big shift, but it doesn’t have to be hard. Like anything, it gets easier with practice. I first began noticing my internal knowingness when I needed to heal. Even though everything in my external life seemed fine, I was completely miserable and depressed with insomnia and anxiety. And yet my life on the outside was just fine. I knew there was a disconnect. I finally started listening to my internal guidance after having a bit of a breakdown, which forced me to stop avoiding my inner world. 

Once I started following the thread of my inner guidance, it became easier and easier over time. It’s like I had to search for that thread in the dark, but once I got hold of it, my world got lighter and lighter, and I could hold onto it more and more easily. Of course, it took time for me to decide that it was real and worth it. Again, nothing in my life, nothing in school, and no one in my family (except for my stepdad later in life) had taught me that listening to my internal compass was something worthwhile or important. Now I believe that learning to live life from the inside has been one of the most powerful things I’ve ever done.

So, how do you start? Well, you get to know yourself. You get quiet and start to listen to yourself. You will know your inner voice because you won’t be able to ignore it. Ask for guidance and grace as you embark on this journey. I believe it’s the most important trip you will ever take.

Who to Trust?

First and foremost, trust yourself. Trust your intuition, your mind, your feelings, and your experiences. That is an area I’ve struggled with since the beginning. I had a hard time trusting my own experience about what I went through as a child, and an equally hard time trusting my experience of God as a young adult. I wanted someone else to tell me what it all meant, because honestly, that is the world I was raised in. I was not raised to trust my own experience, but that of others, especially “experts.” 

Other people are wonderful and can be great teachers and guides, but they are not you. You are here to learn about your own heart, and create your own world. You can learn what is true for you by getting still and sitting in silence until you can hear your own heart. That is the best voice to trust. Your own.

If you feel you need guidance or help, ask a close friend or family member who you know has your best interests at heart, but know, as I often didn’t, that they still have their own life, their own experiences, and their own goals and dreams. They may be able to help you, but the final choice and path is yours. Above all else, trust yourself.