Thank you so much to those of who were following along on my journey in the hospital last week. I was admitted for three days and given all sorts of tests which came up clear, which was great news. They released me to the care of my primary care physician and a neurologist. So far most possibilities have been ruled out, but the numbness in my arm and my legs persists.
In the end, the doctor asked me if I was experiencing anxiety or depression. I realized that while I became pretty good at taking care of myself before I had a family, becoming a mom, getting married, and working have really put my own well-being on the back burner. Maybe I wasn’t monitoring myself as much as I needed to be. Or maybe there is an underlying physical cause for this strange numbness.
Either way, I’m going to work on paying more attention to my heart, something I’ve done a lot of in my life but could always use more practice with. It’s easy for me to overthink and approach life through my mind only, especially when I’m stressed or I’m down about the state of the world. It takes time and awareness to remain centered in one’s heart, but it doesn’t have to be hard. It’s a muscle that strengthens with time and attention.
I have my follow-up appointment this morning, and we’ll see what they say. This weekend I’m also going to my acupuncturist whom I haven’t seen in a long time. I’ll be interested to hear what he thinks!
I’ll keep you posted. Hope you have a beautiful day!
It can be hard to wait for things to come to fruition after working hard for them. It’s not always easy to see how or if your dreams are coming true. I believe that there is a greater plan at work that we can’t always perceive with our human senses. Be patient and keep swimming. If you’ve done your part, the seeds will begin to grow. You can’t always see the heights they will grow to when they have just begun to sprout. Be patient and steadfast.
In healing and in life, it’s so important to take things at the right pace. Try not to rush or push, though the temptation may be great. I’ve heard it said that “life works itself out in the process of life itself,” and I think that’s a great way of putting it.
I used to try to rush many things in my life, from school to work to success to marriage. I pushed hard against the current of life to try to make things work in the way I believed they were supposed to. After connecting with God and my heart, I don’t do that as much (though I still do from time to time).
Living in union with the divine in your soul will allow you to move just enough to let life move through you. You don’t have to force anything or make it happen. Just change your awareness to that which you wish to experience. You can do this because you also are a part of God’s heart.
It doesn’t have to be hard or difficult. This is your birthright. Live into your daily experience and let yourself grow like a bud. A flower cannot be rushed but blooms at the perfect time. So it is with you.
May you experience the perfection in your life as it is in this moment.
I personally believe we are all here to be “Christed,” that is, to learn and live into our oneness with God. Though I know it might not seem like the purpose of life from looking at the news or going to work, my experiences and the things I’ve learned have led me to this belief. In the process of being Christed and becoming aware of our union with God, we may have highs and lows. We may rise to beautiful experiences of love only to fall to depths of sadness later. I’ve definitely been there. The important thing is to be patient with yourself, and to remind yourself why you’re here. It takes time.
Having patience can be so hard in healing, and so important. Trust that your time will come, and that your healing will come. Whatever it is that you’re waiting for, let yourself sit with it. Don’t distract yourself with substances and chemicals and shows and Twitter – let yourself sit and be. Whatever it is that you’re waiting for will come. If you could see from above, you would see how everything is interconnected and happening at the right time. I’ve had to learn to be patient, and when I could not see how things would ever work out, somehow they worked out just perfectly, eventually. Wishing you patience today.
If there is something your heart truly desires, trust that it will be made manifest in your life. This desire, this soul urge, comes from your heart, which comes from God. You may not be able to plan the circumstances. You may not see it coming. It may not look the way you expect it to look. Just trust that your dreams can and will come true. They are within you to be made real.
Hello readers! I’ve decided to change up my blog format after some prayer and contemplation. I’ll be writing shorter daily thoughts Monday through Thursday, and a longer blog post on Fridays. I hope this new format suits you! As always, I sit in prayer before writing, and then write what I feel called to write from my heart.
Thank you so much for reading, as always.
Sometimes things happen in life that don’t seem to make any sense. You may lose a job, have a falling out with a friend, go through a divorce, or any number of things that, at the time they’re happening, seem unfair and incomprehensible. However, I do believe is a greater plan, and a reason why these things happen. You may not be able to see it right away, but if you give it some time, the reason will be made clear.
Throughout my life, I have sometimes found myself in situations in which I couldn’t see why I was there. Things happened to me that I couldn’t understand or didn’t make sense. This includes the “bad” things I’ve been through, like trauma, as well as “good” things like getting pregnant (a surprise) with my daughter. Often these things seemed to occur out of the blue, and I had a hard time making sense of them. But eventually their purpose was made clear, and I was able to appreciate why I had gone through certain things.
If you are feeling like there are events happening in your life that you just don’t understand, take heart. Be patient. Give it some time. The greater plan will be revealed. Live with God’s perspective and try to see things as if from above. Things will come together. “All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.” I believe in you.