Video: Connecting to Your Heart

Hello dear readers! Here is a short video I made with some tips to help you connect with your heart. This process was a huge mystery to me as I was raised with no knowledge of or connection to my heart, but it was connecting with my heart that truly healed me.

Wishing you love and connection today and always.

Pausing throughout the Day

In our harried lifestyles, it can be hard to take a moment and connect with your Self. I know I run, go, move around, get stressed, and lose touch with my heart and purpose on this planet frequently. It’s so easy to lose touch with who I am and why I’m here when there are schools, jobs, commutes, and dinner on the table.

Thankfully, there is one amazing tool that always brings me back to myself – breathing. Breathing can be done at anytime, anywhere. The breath connects our spirits with our bodies and calms our minds. It’s so simple yet so profound. 

The main trick is to notice when you are getting stressed and remember to breathe! I have friends who have apps on their Apple Watches to remind them to pause. I try to notice on my own. It can feel hard to stop and breathe when you’re feeling stressed or rushed, but you can breathe while still continuing about your daily duties. You only need to slow down and get still on the inside. 

Happy Breathing!

Video: My Healing Journey

Please enjoy my first official upload to my YouTube channel! Several people have asked me to share videos since they prefer to listen to/watch things rather than to read, so here you go! In this video I talk about highlights of my healing journey, including learning Reiki, learning how to listen to my heart, and my life-shifting experience of the Divine.

Hope you’re having a beautiful Sunday!

Timelines and Timeline Shifting

I wanted to write today about a topic that comes up a fair amount in spiritual circles, but is one I never heard about until I started exploring this world. A timeline, as far as I understand it, is a line of time that you experience. When we make different choices, we experience different outcomes and move into different timelines. In the total sense, everything that is happening is happening at once. We can choose what version of reality we experience by what we pay attention to, what we think about, and what we do. We can most easily change our timeline experience to a positive one by raising our vibration and aligning with love.

Timelines are a bit of a strange concept that have come to make total sense to me. When I first had my series of spiritual experiences, I had glimpses of alternate timelines. I once opened my computer to write a book that was not about spirituality at all, and as I started to write, I saw my entire future in one moment should I continue to write that book. It was as if I truly lived it. In this timeline, the book was not well-received and I lived out my life in a state of depression. I saw and felt it all. Needless to say, I closed my computer and decided not to write that book!

To me, that experience was a glimpse of an alternate timeline. I chose a different path and thus alighted on a different timeline. Sometimes this awareness has become confusing for me. I want to make the “best” choices with the most positive outcomes, but I can’t always know everything in this moment. The best I am able to do is to listen intently to my heart and follow it to the best of my ability. I can show up with love in my life. When I choose love, I align myself with a more positive timeline and hopefully even allow our collective timeline to experience greater and greater love. 

What do you think about timelines? Have you ever had an inkling about alternate timelines in your life?

I’ll leave you with a fun video from one of my favorite spiritual teachers on YouTube, Bridget Nielsen. Hope you enjoy!

Returning to the Heart

Thank you so much to those of who were following along on my journey in the hospital last week. I was admitted for three days and given all sorts of tests which came up clear, which was great news. They released me to the care of my primary care physician and a neurologist. So far most possibilities have been ruled out, but the numbness in my arm and my legs persists. 

In the end, the doctor asked me if I was experiencing anxiety or depression. I realized that while I became pretty good at taking care of myself before I had a family, becoming a mom, getting married, and working have really put my own well-being on the back burner. Maybe I wasn’t monitoring myself as much as I needed to be. Or maybe there is an underlying physical cause for this strange numbness.

Either way, I’m going to work on paying more attention to my heart, something I’ve done a lot of in my life but could always use more practice with. It’s easy for me to overthink and approach life through my mind only, especially when I’m stressed or I’m down about the state of the world. It takes time and awareness to remain centered in one’s heart, but it doesn’t have to be hard. It’s a muscle that strengthens with time and attention.

I have my follow-up appointment this morning, and we’ll see what they say. This weekend I’m also going to my acupuncturist whom I haven’t seen in a long time. I’ll be interested to hear what he thinks!

I’ll keep you posted. Hope you have a beautiful day!

I am Not my Body

Well, here I am. I am sorry for being so out of touch for the past week. After some prayer and contemplation I decided to begin blogging once a week while I focus on writing my book and studying for the GREs. I was planning to blog weekly on Wednesdays, which would have been yesterday. However, I ended up in the hospital, where I’m writing to you now. “Heal with Rebecca” indeed!

While I have navigated psychological recovery very deeply, I haven’t had very extreme physical illnesses. The physical ailments I suffered from in my early twenties were, I believe, deeply related to my psychological and energetic state, and I was able to heal them with nutrition, meditation, and alternative healing modalities. Primarily, I used to have uterine and pelvic pain that a doctor told me may be endometriosis. Around that time I started studying Reiki in-depth and deep healing my childhood traumas, and the pain resolved quite quickly. Similarly, I’ve periodically had ocular migraines, which always come on when I’m feeling ungrounded and out of touch with myself. I am usually able to breathe these away with stillness and meditation. 

These kind of practices were radically transformative for me, having been raised in a very medical household where I had easy access to medicine and doctors. I’ve reached a beautiful midpoint between the two worlds, where I am able to appreciate the value of both. I have come to believe many if not most of my health issues had their roots in my spiritual state. At the same time, I’ve learned to see that western medicine is very useful and even beautiful when it is needed. I’m amazed when I think of the years of research that scientists and doctors have conducted while searching for cures for the most difficult illnesses.

That brings me to yesterday, when I ended up in the Emergency Room for spreading numbness in my limbs. Having developed a close relationship with my body over the years, this numbness really took me by surprise. I am used to being able to breathe, meditate, or use healing foods to help my sicknesses and ailments go away, and this was not doing that! The numbness began in my arm on Monday, spreading to my feet and my other arm by Wednesday. No pain, just numbness. Tingling, limbs falling asleep, numbness.

Of course, this is a strange feeling, and reading the internet and talking to doctors can make things seem quite dire. What if the numbness continues to spread? What if I do have a suspected Guillain-Barre Syndrome? Guillain-Barre can be extremely debilitating, possibly requiring a breathing machine as your nerves stop working and paralyze your whole body. Thankfully, it’s temporary, but imagining going through that process is terrifying. 

I came to some peaceful realizations that helped me a lot yesterday as I faced these fears. I was reminded that I have a body, I am not my body. That thought helped me a ton. I believe that my soul lives forever, so even if my body fails me or does some things that are unexpected, my soul is still just fine. I also remembered that God is in charge, and I did some strong, big prayers to God, Jesus, and the angels, and felt very held and loved. And of course, I reached out for prayers from family and friends. Hearing from friends and family thinking of me and praying for me helped me feel so much better.

We’ll see what happens over the next few days. I’ll keep you posted on the blog when I am able to. Maybe it will all resolve and I’ll be back at work on Monday, or maybe it’s a dire situation. Either way, I’m very grateful to have a caring medical staff here at the hospital, a loving God holding me, and the beautiful love of friends and family.