Thank you so much to those of who were following along on my journey in the hospital last week. I was admitted for three days and given all sorts of tests which came up clear, which was great news. They released me to the care of my primary care physician and a neurologist. So far most possibilities have been ruled out, but the numbness in my arm and my legs persists.
In the end, the doctor asked me if I was experiencing anxiety or depression. I realized that while I became pretty good at taking care of myself before I had a family, becoming a mom, getting married, and working have really put my own well-being on the back burner. Maybe I wasn’t monitoring myself as much as I needed to be. Or maybe there is an underlying physical cause for this strange numbness.
Either way, I’m going to work on paying more attention to my heart, something I’ve done a lot of in my life but could always use more practice with. It’s easy for me to overthink and approach life through my mind only, especially when I’m stressed or I’m down about the state of the world. It takes time and awareness to remain centered in one’s heart, but it doesn’t have to be hard. It’s a muscle that strengthens with time and attention.
I have my follow-up appointment this morning, and we’ll see what they say. This weekend I’m also going to my acupuncturist whom I haven’t seen in a long time. I’ll be interested to hear what he thinks!
I’ll keep you posted. Hope you have a beautiful day!
Having patience can be so hard in healing, and so important. Trust that your time will come, and that your healing will come. Whatever it is that you’re waiting for, let yourself sit with it. Don’t distract yourself with substances and chemicals and shows and Twitter – let yourself sit and be. Whatever it is that you’re waiting for will come. If you could see from above, you would see how everything is interconnected and happening at the right time. I’ve had to learn to be patient, and when I could not see how things would ever work out, somehow they worked out just perfectly, eventually. Wishing you patience today.
Healing your heart starts with getting still and centered. Healing your heart is the path to the self and to joy. To heal the heart, begin by bringing awareness to your heart center. You will feel it with some attention and patience. There is your connection to God, and there you can feel great love once you’ve cleared the debris of your wounds.
I used to have a great deal of anger and sadness in my heart center. At first, I was unaware that it was even there. But once I began healing in earnest, I focused my energy on trying to feel my heart. I knew at a base level that it was covered up with something. I felt my heart to be somewhat detached and removed. It was not a great way to go through life but it was all I knew. I suspect I wasn’t the only one walking around removed from my heart.
Healing my heart meant listening to myself. To heal your heart, get still. Listen to yourself. Ask your angels, guides, and God to help you heal your heart. You will not be left alone. I believe you will be guided to your highest good and most holy healing. Your heart is your connection to God. Awakening that connection will allow you to live a fuller, truer, happier life – which is something you deserve, and were born for.
In tragedy or in triumph, whether you’re building something beautiful or repairing something broken, often all we need to do is to take the next step. When I’ve been in very difficult situations and very lost, it was easy to see a big world in front of me, become overwhelmed, and just shut down. Conversely, when I’m working towards making something I care about, I can get ahead of myself, become anxious, and also shut down.
The next step is right in front of you. Don’t make a situation more daunting than it needs to be. Just take the next step, whatever it may be. Hopefully, it will be easy for you to discern what the next step is, for whatever is occupying your mind and energies. If not, as always, get still and quiet, then listen to what arises from within. Once you know what that step is, call on your resources, support system, angels, and everything you may need to help you. Then go for it.
Taking the next step in front of you is a way of keeping your mind on your present situation, rather than on an ambiguous and amorphous future. You don’t need to get overwhelmed. Stay right here, with your feet on the ground. Figure out what your next, reasonable, doable step is, and take it.