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March 2019

Healing Racism & White Privilege

As I work to heal myself, I also work to heal my relationship to race and white privilege. As a traumatized teen, I could not see my privilege, yet as I’ve healed, gotten older, and learned more, I am able to see, even despite the trauma I endured, the great amount of privilege I had as a result of the color of my skin, the socioeconomic status of my family, and even the access to mental health resources I had when I began to heal. It’s been tough to face, but at the same time, a big area for me to heal with love. On top of that, the people who helped me heal the most were people of color – my first Reiki teacher and...

Forgiving Yourself for the Past

Some days I find myself overtaken by difficult memories of the past. I remember things I wish I would not have done, or things I wish I would not have said. It can be painful to recall those moments, and too easy to dwell on them. Here are some techniques I work on to let those old memories go. Thought-stopping – When I notice that I am dwelling on these past moments too much, I catch myself and actively replace those thoughts with a positive thought or a thought that brings peace. Or I will notice I’m dwelling on these past moments and stop myself by taking a deep breath and saying a mantra like “I love myself.” This takes a lot of effort and, honestly, I...

Allowing Others to Change

When someone has hurt us in the past, it is easy to hold those painful memories in our minds about what that other person has done. But what if that person changes? We can give them the great gift of letting those old mental pictures go. We can let them be their new selves by seeing the highest good in them.  I am actively practicing letting old memories of others go by centering my heart in love and shrugging off painful past moments. I am seeing them as they are in this moment, and embracing the new vision they have of themselves. I can see a new way. I can help them, and myself, on the path towards love by releasing moments held in the past.  The...

The Joy of Knowing God Exists

During and immediately after my experience of God, I felt pure bliss, joy, peace, and love. It was like being connected back to my true self, the one I’d only dared to hope was real, but generally didn’t believe in. However, living after that experience was much more difficult than I expected. Even though I had felt God’s true peace, I really had to work to see it in my life and in the world around me. It was, and still is sometimes, surprisingly disappointing. And yet, overall, knowing God exists is probably the best thing that’s ever happened to me in my life. It’s completely changed my outlook on everything, and allowed me to find peace when I didn’t think peace would ever be...

Connecting to your Guides and Angels

I’ll admit, when I first approached this area in my own healing journey, I scoffed and judged the idea completely. Spirit guides? Angels around us? That sounded ridiculous and impossible to a “smart” person like me. And yet, I’ve come around to the other side and realized I was wrong, primarily because of my own experiences.  When I first had my experience of God, I felt angels around me very strongly. They felt very loving, very gentle, and very wise. Without the guidance of several people, especially my stepfather, I would have decided I was very seriously schizophrenic and dismissed it all. And yet, connecting with the angels only helped me to live a happier, more loving, and more joyful life. In that way, my “insanity”...

Prayer

When I woke up this morning, I had my mind set on writing today’s blog about prayer. And of course, today presented me with a thousand reasons to pray. And of course, I often forgot to pray. I wondered to myself, “how can I write a blog about prayer when I can’t even remember to pray myself!” Like everything, it’s a work in progress (as am I). Several years ago, I had a very powerful dream about prayer. In this dream, I was surrounded by angry people. They were getting angrier and angrier, yelling and scowling. Somehow amidst this furor I remembered to start praying. I started saying the first prayer that popped into my mind, the Our Father. As I prayed, I began rising. I rose and...

Caring for Others

“An awakened species sees the Unity of All Life and lives into it. Humans in an unawakened state often deny it or ignore it.” - Conversations with God, Book 4 I’m writing to you the day after the terrorist attacks in New Zealand which killed 49 Muslims. At Mosque. Praying during Friday prayers.  My heart aches for those who lost family members, and for the entire Muslim community.  How can we care for others during these times? I don’t know the best or the right way. I do know that I prayed and felt called to contact my Muslim friend in town and send apologies, love, and to tell her I supported her and her family. Even though I wasn’t...

Being Balanced

Learning how to remain balanced is a vital part of healing and one I work on steadily. To me, being balanced means living equally through all three parts of our being: body, mind, and spirit. Throughout many times of my life I’ve teetered out of balance in these areas. Thankfully, I eventually find my way back to balance with some focus and intention.  Growing up, I was taught that only the body and mind existed, and I focused all of my energy on them while my spirit suffered. This looked like me exercising (body) and studying (mind) and ending the day in tears (suffering spirit). Conversely, when I first had my spiritual awakening, I was so in awe of God that I focused all my energy...

Not Giving Up

When you have your sights set on something, be it completing a goal or finishing a task, don’t give up. Keep going, keep working, keep striving towards your vision. Fearful inner voices may try to convince you that your vision is impossible. Do not listen to them! Instead, listen to your higher self, your God self, your heart. It will keep shining like a guiding star in your most lost moments. It will carry you to completion. Your heart has your true interests in mind, not your fears.  If you feel like giving up, keep going, and know that your time is coming.  ...

Happy Women’s Day

Today I'm honoring the women who've come before me. I'm honoring the women who are doing important work today. I'm honoring the women who have loved me and taught me, and the women who've loved and taught others. And I'm honoring all women, who are amazing just for existing. I hope we can continue to lift your voices for all to hear and honor. I hope we can create a world where all women are safe. Where all women have enough. Where all women are loved and cared for. Sending out love to each one of you....